Crawling Baby by Carey Evans
As the glow of holiday fun slowly starts to fade and a new year is about to begin, I have been reflecting on my past. Of the many plans I made, some goals succeeded, while others didn’t work out as I expected. Many of my aspirations were fluid, flexible things such as being more generous with my compliments, time and forgiveness. I am trying to complain less, exercise more and striving to maintain my inner peace at all times.
With all the fun and excitement of the holidays, I was on an emotional high. As I look back on things I said and did, I realize there were so many opportunities to do more. Chances to smile more, help with the dishes, do a random act of kindness, or simply eat and act in a more healthful way.
But while in past years I would feel guilty for my mistakes or even want to give up because I complained too often, or wasn’t as nice as I could have been, now I’m happy that I see the opportunities for next time. I’m proud of the good things I did do. While I didn’t eat healthy every day, I ate better overall than previous years. If I didn’t help as much as I felt I should have, I did smile more, laugh more and enjoyed the holidays instead of stressing over things that didn’t go right.
Writing this blog and giving advice to all of you, helps me to recognize both the progress I’ve made and the many things I still want to achieve. It helps to compare my development to a baby learning to walk. You start by crawling. And falling. And crawling some more. That small success makes you hunger for more adventures and new places to explore. Next you learn to balance yourself and stand. Then a few teetering steps, and suddenly you’re walking! In your final stage you learn to walk faster and faster until you gain strength and speed and evade your parents with glee as you investigate everything around you.
That’s what I’m doing. I’m learning to run. Each time I learn a step in the process of becoming a better person (or at least more like the person I want to be), I am finding my balance and my rhythm. And though it may take many more years until I can run, I’m finding the journey to be one hell of a fun ride!
Happy holidays to all of you. May your next year be filled with excitement, mystery, discovery, adventure, and lots of joy!